ashley-pan

2008-07-07T16:00:00.007+08:00

MAnChester here I come!!!! haha wow i can't wait haha i will be there for 2 weeks.Fortunately, i am skipping exams..yey!! so these are pictures i promise...since long long time ago haha...

front page!!

daphanie!!! eat eat KFC nia!!

a few pictures in Ms Su's book!!!
she loved it!!! she gave us A+++++++....hehe

driver for the day!!

woah!! that's a lot of things!!

some people are just too hardworking:)

MR.McD shoe!!

woot! woot!

guess who!?!

kill!!!hehe

can you see?!? lavine got scare dby this innocent snake..hehe

my email!!!

creepy!!

eat eat eat!! i was super hungry at 2.00 am haha

someone destroyed the bathroom hehe sshhh!
i'm gonna update the rest when i come back...leaving now to england!!!! yoohhoooo!!!

Pictures!!!

2008-05-23T22:28:00.005+08:00

WAHLAH!!! handmade earrings haha during christmas..

BERNARD's birthday!!

i'm rocking with a guitar!

Patrick i look so much better hehe jkjk:)

OOoohhlala lawrence hehe...

birthday boy!!

made chocolate cake, fondue and choc cornflakes hehe DELICIOUS@!!!!doesn't it look tempting!?!? hehe

in taiwan!!! last christmas!!

YAYASAN AWARD 2008 DAY

CIkgu Linus who are you dreaming of??

the boy with tie is owen who is the new president for interact and i'm the vice...

GROUP PICTURE!

some are just too too happy aih??

can you see me?

THESE PICTURES WILL B IT FOR NOW..THERE WILL BE MORE TOMMOROW!! HAHA THERE'S MS SU'S BOOK THAT A FEW OF US CREATED TO BE SHOWN , TEACHER'S DAY AND CHURCH CAMP!!

2008-04-29T14:03:00.003+08:00

well praise God!!! my results back and i did pass two and fail two hehe..but i tried my best and i'm pretty happy with my marks...eventhough it is pretty bad to fail two important subjects like physics and chemistry but well at least i improved and i pass two!!!haha and that is because God guide me through my exams and help me remember a lot of things...hehe just got my report back yesterday...first time 2 reds!!haha hopefully mummy and daddy will chill about it...now is like 2.07pm and i just can't stop thinking about so many things...these pass few days were my worst days in school...i had the musical drama audition last week and man it sucks like hell...the storyline was really good actually but it's just when i had rehearsals no one coorperated with me...sometimes i just wish that they know how hard is it for me to handle all these things...well when the audition was drawing nearer everyone starts to help and all and i was so grateful that they did...everyone helped eventhough sometimes they just kill me...arghH!!! but the important thing is that they came for rehearsal and they helped...well the whole audition thing didn't work out is mainly because the mike couldn't work...the PA system was terrible and the judges didn't even bother to look at us..actually a particular one...i mean the judges are teachers and teachers are suppose to know that they should give respect too to the students hard work eventhough they it is terrible but is the initiative that counts...but teachers don't get it...they may be the boss of us but they don't know the rights...anyways after the audition i felt so upset and angry at the judges and the systems and all and at time i did a big mistake...and i never forgave myself for it...because of one stupid musical night i lose all my friends...that day this guy, he told me a wrong thing that made all these misunderstanding between my close friends to happen...well surprisingly that guy doesn't give a damn about it..making me held responsible of this whole thing...and indeed it is my fault...when i looked back at that day i can't imagine that i actually said those words to him...and i regret saying it...he didn't deserve those harsh words...we used to be always laughing and giggling about everything but now it's all different...when he pass me, we don't smile at each other anymore but he just treats me like a nobody...i don't know how to make him forgive me...and also his friends well practically his gang is also piss with me... i'm sorry for what i've said..i am really sorry but i want them to know that all these is a misunderstanding...and when i am piss that day, i didn't even think at all and when i saw him i just scolded him because of what that guy had said to me, it had something to do with him and is definitely something i didn't want to hear that day especially it had something to do with the musical drama...and of course i should have asked whether is that true first before i shouted at him but the fact is i was angry...and i believe that when a person is angry and upset i don't think you can even think for a second whether he/she is right when you hear something about him/her...i'm not saying this cause i am trying to cover my mistakes but is just kind of the fact...he is so angry with me..i can't even described it... he had to know that the guy said this" ******* said to the guys that you said that you definitely pass the audition" i got piss of that is because i never said anything like that and it's just everytime their gang put words in my mouth..i just can't stand the fact i am always the one get blame and always the one they pick on... i mean why must it be me...like all the things that happened they just blame it on me eventhough i didn't say anything or even do anything...seriously that is why i am so piss that time...i need them to know how sorry i am for what i did...i said sorry a few times already to them but unfortunately they can't forgive me...i just hope one day they will know that i'm very sorry and that it is all a misunderstanding and that i never meant a word i said to them..hopefully that one day comes real soon because i can't stand that we all close friends don't talk anymore...
on sunday when i read the bible i learnt two important things which were;
"The tougue is a small thing that makes grand speeches. But a tiny spark can set a great forest on fire." (James 3:5)
from this i realise that before i speak i should ask," is it true?"...and because i didn't and i speak, i set the forest on fire... that forest is the friendship between my guy friends...and because one stupid misunderstanding, the forest is on fire... and i learnt to not speak before the truth is spoken...and i know that i am wrong and i know i spoke at the your time and i need to control my tougue...well in James i know that we all makes mistakes. For if we could control our tougues,we would be perfect and could also control ourselves in every other way...but we are not perfect...and i made a huge mistake which i would trade for anything to take back what i did...

the next thing is;
from Matthew 18:21-33
the rabbis taught that Jews should forgive those who offend them up to three times. Peter asked Jesus, if forgiving someone for the same offense seven times was good enough. But Jesus reply, was a hint that forgiveness was to be offered always.When it comes to forgiving others, are you like a convenience store-open 24/7 or like a store with limited hours?

Jesus forgave us everytime we sinned and why that He can forgive but we can't forgive others...we should forgive others as He forgave us eventhough the thing to be forgiven is so hard and hurtful and harsh but whatever it is we all should forgive each other always... Jesus said we should forgive people seventy times seven and not seven times...
from this we all should forgive each other like how Jesus forgave us...
and from what had happened between me and my friends... i just hope that they will forgive me too as i forgave them for all these years for what they did to me...last year so many commotion that happened and well unfortunately i was kind of the victim for all...like the teacher's day thing...what they hurt so much and they thing it's funny...fine i don't mind they disturb me because it is funny but they need to know their limit and especially that day what they did was just so damn hurtful..but after they said sorry which was after a few days like 3 or 4 maybe i forgave them...and i'll tell u the truth it wasn't easy..but i forgave them because they said sorry to me...that sorry means a lot to me and it meant something so i forgave them because i know it came from their heart...but after that other things happen again but i forgave them still...well and on sunday when i read that in matthew i realise that that what i did was what God wants me to do..to be always open for forgiveness and i thought yeah i did...i was glad but then i realise i didn't forgive one person until now...and that is someone i love always...my dad... what he did to all of us, is just hard to forget and forgive but then now he is back!! he is my dad and he knows it is wrong and now he is trying to change and i thought why can't i forgive him and why can't i give a chance...i guess is just my stubbornness inside me but now i know that if God forgave him and gave him a chance and i should too as God forgave me for everything i did...if God can forgive someone who murdered someone and he realised it and he was given a chance by God...that is kind of hard to forgive but God did it...and my dad deserves a chance and i am sorry that i didn't forgive him until now..i love that he is back!!!

from what i had learnt, i just wish that my friends will forgive me too...i am so sorry for what i did to them..i am really sorry..i didn't mean too...i'm just so tired that i am always the one that get blame and i'm sorry...i am really sorry..but please guys understand why this happened and please understand that i am so sorry and i never meant for this to happen...please forgive me...

Lord, will they ever forget about what happened and forgive me?? will they?? when?? will they do it like you said, forgive and forget about it as people makes mistakes??i am so sorry...i guess i deserve it too but ain't it going to get old and when will it end...sorry i justpray they will know how sorry i am i am really really sorry...

well i want to talk to them but i don't know how because i'm afraid they will walk away if i talk to them...i believe that all of these quarreling that had been happening since last year is for a reason and to me is like a challenge on how strong our friendship is..the devil is trying is so hard to break my friends and me apart but all these time we managed to get threw and became best buddies again..and these time is the worst...devil is really trying so hard to break us and it might be working this time but i am not going to let that happen...because our strength between our frienship that is given by God is more powerful than a devil's power...so i am not going to give up saying sorry and make them understand until we become best friends again!! and i believe God is so happy that we all always become best buddies again after a big fight and i believe He is guiding us to be back together again and not let the DEVIL succeed at ALL!!! and hopefully we will become one again and they would forgive me...

only words i can now is

I'M SORRY GUYS!!

2008-04-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

WOW!!!i didn't update at all!!!! now everything is just so confusing.....i just finished my exams and hopefully i'll be able to pass 2 out of 4 haha....that's my aim!!! haha well for asessment i did really badly...so this time i have get better results...haha anyways i have this musical drama in my school to take care of..It's like everything's is just falling apart...i mean no one wants to cooperate and if this doesn't go well my head will be totally chop off by madam voon....I'm really trying and it's like everyone just don't seems to care...for goodness sake, this is everyone's responsibility...i just hope tommorow as it will be our first rehersal i hope everyone listens to me(fingers cross)...Audition is like next monday and we haven't started anything yet and i just wish we can pass and everyone cooperates....the time when i asked to have meeting it was so hard to even talk to them...they even want to listen, some even came late....luckily i had danielle to help me...so thanks to her they listened...tommorow wil be the dancing practice so hopefully it will be done tommorow...

school is just so complicated right now...i can't wait for it to be over actually...with all this and plus the things that are going on with my family...hrmmm i don't think i can even think for one second with all these problems that just keeps building up each day...the burglars just keeps coming and coming to my home...they broke into my dad's shop for 3 times already....and the third time was just last friday...that was really scary...there was 4 guys that try to break into my dad's shop...but they failed cause we caught them in time...they did it around 5 o'clock....my dad went down to see what happened and he wanted to go to the police and he did but on his way he bumped into 4 of them near yoshi corner....and they try to block my dad and they even threw stones towards the car...my dad drove off and it hit one of the guy by accident...so my dad went to make a report of the break in plus bout the accident but he wasn't sure whether he did but my dad assumes that he did....so after that it was okie until in the morning they came back and they smashed my car the old camri...it was wow!!! i think that describes it...i have a picture of it so i'll post it the next time... they smashed in during the day and there's like people working...i don't understand how the workers is so stupid..they can just look and didn't do anything...it just doesn't make sense... so now my dad is kind of worried so he asked my uncle to stay with in case anything happened...i'm glad my uncle came too....but i know everything is going to be okay...haha

i'm just confuse with my dad now...today he was so fierce and angry at me and my mum...we both just felt that it was weird because no one done anything...so it's just have this feeling that he is keeping something from us...well he has changed this year...i don't know daddy anymore...is like when my mum and I came back from the barber he actually locked his room door so we were kinna of confused why he did that but i guess maybe it's just an accident...i just miss my dad...

oh yeah...we had a party for caleb yesterday as it was his birthday...it was fun fun fun fun!!! haha he loved it!!! i'm really happy we did that for him...the surprise was stupid haha everyone hide and me and sam was trying to light the candle and by that time caleb and his siblings were standing there looking at us all confused...haha and then we both just laughed and laughed and then we just send surprise hahaha it was stupid but funny so yeah haha hope this is his best birthday ever....haha HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CALEB!!!!!!!:)

i have loads of pictures to update so i will update it soon ..when i get the pictures...good luck for me tommorow....hopefully my musical drama goes well and my exam results is not bad...haha fingers cross!!! hearts beating!! haha let's see!!!!

2008-02-05T18:24:00.000+08:00

wow!!! it have been like two months since i update...that's so long ago..hahaha well as my com was in the shop i couldnt go online and even send emails nor blog..so it was only left for my phone to keep me occupied hahaha...lols!! it's not that bad...after getting use to it hahaha well if everyone was wondering why evonne was congratulating me ...well i got my straight A's !!! thank to God...without Him i doubt that i could have gotten that!! so Praise Him!!! it's true!! His the one that gave the brain to remember all the facts and knowledge....so God is Amazing..well if u're wondering wy i am able to write my blog..well i kind of taking a time off from helping my dad..haha secretly** haha have to go back work soon...hehe well i can update tonight again...cause my com is AOK!!!! hahha finally!! well i was suppose to get a mac com or notebook but in the end i changed my mind haha...i might get a playstation game plus NitendoWEE hehe(spelling) hehe hehe erm hope i can get that soon haha it's super fun haha anyways it's like 2 more days to CNY...yey!!! more cookies and cakes to eat!!! deserts!!!! yum yum yum!!! hahaha well sadly this year my mum's not going to join us for CNY...well she will be going to melbourne with my bro on the 8th so yea... hrmm my dad will be all alone when i go out with my friends so it's kind of hard ...well we'll just see what happen haha...anyways form 4 life...is quite okay i guess ..it's just filled with homework and test everyday!!! haha add maths is pretty easy actually well at least better than the rest haha chemistry is annoying , biology is interesting and fun but has too too much facts and physics.... no comment on that yet haha well science stream's going to have the assesment test at the end of february so i have to work a liltle harder to pass my exams hahaha...i am planning to stay in science so i have to WORK IT!! hehe fingers cross that i will pass with flying colours!!! hehe anyways past weeks had party party party all the way haha well had siew yee's party which was fun, my lil cousin party was cute , fishy's party which was cool and nice!!! hahaha all birthday birthday birthday...and this weekened there's daphane's birthday party...HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!!! go learn how to drive--QUICK!!! i'm still waiting you know-- hahaha...anyways oh yea last holiday in december i went thailand...haha i got traumatise there by my brother!!!! it was super scary and sad!!! :( well it was about a kid who got kidnapped...well the thompson corner family went to thailand for holiday and their kid, just a little boy who i think was only 7 years old...and he got kidnapped ...well i guess you all heard about this story long long time ago but the worst part that made me traumatise was when my brother and siter told me that when the little boy got kidnapped the kidnappers chop of their legs hands and tougue...who is so cruel to do that?? well plenty of people har?? it's so dreadful... imagining the poor lilttle boy suffering and alone!! sigh sigh** being so young and opnly had 7 happy years... and now his about my age i think...oh another story was that his aunty went thailand and saw him at the streets but didn't recognise him until the end...the boy knew who she was but he couldn't talk..he just sobbed there...and when his aunty realised ..he was gone!!! well there is still hope...when there's hope there's a happening...so i guess we just can hope for another miracle to happen for their family...i just hope the kid will be strong and have faith..FAITH AND HOPE IS MORE POWERFUL THAN ANY KUNG FU FIGHTING SO BELIEVE!!! after that story at night when i slept i think i was have nightmares because when i woke up my sister told me i kept kicking her...lols!! oh we stayed in a apartment which was marvelous...haha the place is great just scary..haha well everywhere is haha just need to pray for protection and guidiance hehe..oh i remembered icame up with a plan to kepp everyone safe and stick together..haha what was the word called hrmmm..i can't remember haha when we're walking at the pathway or shopping at the market , i made everyone stand together ...haha i will shout the word when it is needed haha well i think all the way that plan was needed haha...wait wait i remember the word haha it's FORMATION!!! haha i'll belike formation! formation! formation! haha haha have no idea how that came up ..haha so yea...it work okay.. haha well got scolded a litlle bit for it haha oh wells at least it was a fun trip well plus terriying haha... can't wait for che che to come back..and jerry evernthough he haven't leave yet..i guess i just want them here ..it's so lonely and small in number now...for me at least haha two more years of this!! argh!!! i can't wait for bee bee and maine maine's graduation ... i've been looking forward for that since last year haha so i hope i wouldn't be dissapointed again...good luck to me in that!! haha okie gotha go jaga the money...to be continued......

2007-12-16T15:29:00.000+08:00

I know I know...i haven't been updating yet!! well i haven't upload any of my pictures ...i have loads to talk about haha..well i went to bernard's party..that was ages ago...haha and yesterday our church organise the kids christmas party and it was great...but unfortunately i couldn't go for the concert at night..so sad but it's okay..i had fun at the dinner i went with my family...err well as a welcoming dinner for my sisters...Yes they are back!!!! haha... ooh yea...last week i had pool party at evonne's house..it was fun..haha khung ming at all the pizza hrmmm haha and left us with nothing haha...oh wells then on tuesday i went to ebc church to hear this talk by pastor Mark ..it was pretty good...and the worship was extremely good..Wilson lead the team...that day when the pastor gave the talk...it was like a meassage God or like God speaking to me..because most of the questions i asked God..and was still asking was mostly answered in the talk...and i understood a little so i remembered i said i think i'm like God's personal joke but the fact is...i'm not!! no one is!! :) well slowly i'm drawing closer to God just in a really slow pace...but i wouldn't give up even though it takes a long time to be strong like Him...:) okay anyways i can't wait to go to Absolutely...haha i hope got nice dresses when i go haha maybe going to cut my hair... hrm should I?? well maybe thinning it hrmm maybe maybe hahaokay now it's time for greys anatomy!!! haha season 4!!! muahahaha

NIGHTMARE!!!!

2007-11-24T18:22:00.000+08:00

OMGosh!!! my whole com spoilt so now i am dying of boredom... my brother just got back from Australia few days ago and me for thinking he can fix my com...but actually i was wrong..he actually made my com wnet kaboom!!! seriously !! thank you bro for nothing! hahaha ..but oh wells...it is still in my room, taking a break...i have few things to update but i can't yet cause my pictures are in my com...haha well my bro spoilt my com...so he has to suffer me using his com !!! wakaka...anyways i will update the previous things when i get back my computer unless my bro allows me to put my pictures in his computer haha...oh yea just got back from shopping too!! haha i bought a new dress.. well is more to a double thing haha...it's actually really nice..well another SUMMER DRESS!!! haha..

2007-11-11T11:46:00.000+08:00

isit wrong for wanting to go to youth?? isit wrong that i want to have fun?? isit wrong???

every tear flows from your eye is so precious...every tear that flows from my eye there's a meaning to it...we don't cry just like that...is either sadness or joy...wad is mine?? for now is definitely sadness...i just want to go youth and listen to the teaching and also have fun...why can't i do any of that now?? i finished my freaking form 3 year...and don't you think i should do all things now---having fun, going youth, doing all the activities---but no!!! i can't...just beacuse of a material that mummy gave me...the material is my phone that was stolen...until now i'm still banned from going youth...i feel so annoyed and angry!!! i don't care about my phone being stolen anymore...i put that in my past but why can't my parents do that...why can't they understand that i just want to go youth and go out!!

my relationship with God now...i have no idea where am i standing...i don't even know who is He anymore or who am i...you know there is this thin piece of glass which can just break easily...but i am trying to take care of it ...so that it wouldn't break into pieces...but there is so many temptation that could just break that glass...and the glass is my faith in God... i feel like i'm going further and further from God and my parents don't even give a damn!! i don't read the bible like i used to already and i don't talk to God because i just can't...and i just need to go youth and listen to Gods words and just sing and maybe one day i will be strong again but now.. i can't do that..as my parents they just don't want me to go so how do i do it?? i know we can always gain back our strength at home..actually anywhere but can i?? unfortunately i thought i could but i can't...i just feel when i'm in youth and i go for their bible study and stuff..i feel i am learning something..i am learning Gods words and i just had faith in Him....i'm not saying i have no faith in Him but now i can tell you the truth that my faith is thinner than a contact lens...

you know when i was still having my pmr exams...i was so looking forward for my holidays because i thought i would be able to go youth and go out and have fun....i never pictured my holiday to be like this!!! you know when i lost my phone..this aunty told me that don't fall for this trick that the satan is giving you..he just trying to break your relationship with God...and i stayed strong...i didn't care about that anymore...but now i'm not strong...

now i totally just stop stop talking to God...i can't say a word to Him because i don't know what is going on... i don't is He trying to do or what!! i watched the movie material girls and when all the bad things happen Ava said i'm like Gods personal joke...and now i feel i am Gods personal joke!!!

everytime i want to go out i can't because i'm so afraid my dad will get angry or my mum... so so many times i had plans i just didn't go...i guess i'm really afraid to get scolded...just don't like it:):)

now i just want to go to youth...i know they will they are protecting me in case my stuff get stolen again...i'm sorry but this is not protecting me!! this is more a torturing to me...i accepted not going youth because i know it was a lesson and all but i didn't know until now they can't let it go...this is not a lesson anymore is more to a punishment!! sometimes i just wish i could shout out and scream...and sometimes i just wish my mum would just know...

what am i suppose to do now?? pretend everything is okay??? i've been pretending long enough well sometimes and i can't pretend anymore... i hate it!!i hate it!!i hate it!!i just hate it!! i hate that everything is going the way they want it to be not the way it is meant to be....:)

now i'm only listening to the song IRIS by GOO GOO DOLLS!! :):) just over and over again...

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

[Iris lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

(break and solo)

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

IRIS by GOO GOO DOLLS...

really nice song!!

2007-11-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

i just got back my dinner...we ate at Mr HO..it was alright haha but it's not the restaurant that i'll go on and on about till i get the chance to go again...haha but the salad was really delicious actually..anyways i promise the pictures...

PICTURES!!!

say:TIDAK!!

YUCKS!!!

DRAGON UP!!!
(american dragon)

perfumes--smell nice but can actually kill u!!!

SHOES!!

these are kind of cool..hehe anyways that's it!! no more pictures..ending of the kl trip!!:)

continuation...

2007-11-07T14:20:00.000+08:00

2nd day...well me and my roommate woke up at like 6 i think well we slept at 3 or nearly 4 haha...anyways we got ready and went for breakfast....and of course i had like a westernese breakfast...haha well after that we went to KLCC...well we had to wait like 20 minutes i think for teh petrosains to open...well at least that gave me some time to cut my nails hahaha anyways when it finaally open at last!!!...hahaha honestly it's pretty cool, not what i expected...we had quite limited time so we glance through it really quickly haha check out the pictures we took...haha

well before i show that pictures...i remembered i owe some of the previous pictures on 1st day..haha

this ang mo..we met..haha
sorry the pictures are so small..my freind totally deleted her photos so i had to grab it from friendster which is small too...how annoying... you can't see a thing ...haha
nice skirts aih??? well it's actually bags hehe

cute:)

so after we wonder around the shopping mall...i think it's hardly a mall haha erm we went to the playground...and i had a taste of my own scene from titanic...

well it's not exactly the same hahaha...shacky position hehe
well okay lets get back on the 2nd day haha...in petrosains..

i guess i put my stand in petrosains like the hollywood thing...haha

cool aih?? it's not wad it looks like actually haha is more to a scientific thing haha

the artist of creating art(the 2 frog --i think-- next to him)

don't that coat fits me perfectly..hehe

the next albert einstein

that took me ages to lift the weigh up...lolz

lolz..that's so lame...

aww caleb and chris...lolz..(don't be mad at me caleb) hehe

andy:)

well after that we had lunch in KLCC too and went shopping...totally didn't buy anything haha we went toys r us...for fun actually hehe... only have one pic now...

me playing basketball...

i will try get the rest of the pics in toys r us...
anyways after that we went to see the Malaysia eye!!! hrmmm copycat!! haha jkjk yea it seems nice but not the view hahaha i meant the feris wheel haha

fine!! this view is actually pretty nice haha

but the water below us as in the river...is kind of disgusting...the colour actually haha
we met new friends..haha
okay after that we went to times square haha and that time was the first time i sat the rollarcoaster hahaha man is really really fun hahaha yea we totally play the whole time and didn't even go shopping well at least some of us haha erm me, khang ngee, stella, caleb, owen, rueben , shia lee and more hahaha we tried the 360 degrees ride..seriously i didn't even know that ride was like that haha...well wow!! that was pretty scary but it was super fun hahaha... well and after that i think we ate dinner and went back hotel and of course shopping time !!! hahaha and that time i bought a MNG shorts ...is really nice hahaha well i like it haha
the next day .. the first was we went to sunway haha the rollarcoaster was so boring haha haha i like the "something" haha i can't remember what was it called hehe my bad...anyways as usual we played till we had no time to change or eat...haha then we went to bandar utama haha which there, i absolutely nothing to buy hahaha oh yea at the end when it was time to go back...me and kn totally lose our way...it was kind of scary haha well i quickly prayed and we found the way back to the light haha...kn bought really nice soldier pants which totally suits her and a blouse for only RM20 which fits her nicely hahaha and again the same routine starts again..having dinner and then go back to the hotel and went shopping and this time i bought a Levis pants...it's not jeans it's more to cargoish pants or something haha but me and kn didn't go back to hotel that early like i mean 10 but instead we went to the archade with the 3 C class people plus some 3 A haha...till like nearly 11 so we had to rush back before we got caught haha well of course we were 59 seconds early hahaha then we had to pack for the next day to go home again...but honestly it did past really quickly but to tell you the truth i do miss HOME!!! haha my room!!! and my doggie!!!haha so the next day we went to visit LIM KOK WING uni... well actually it really looks nice haha...and the presentations seems really cool haha some of my friends like samantha and khang ngee was already thinking of going there to study hahaha but to me eventhough it does look and sound really great but that definitely doesn't change my dream studying abroad...haha i can't wait to study abroad well i've been wanting to go UK to visit and of course study there too but my daddy wants me to study in Aus ... well it's cheaper so i guess me of wanting to study in UK is already canceled but at least i'm still going overseas haha...we'll see in 2 years haha i got to run now... oh yea pictures in lim kok wing..i'll update it later...but sadly no pictures me in rollarcoaster or any of teh rides haha..

back

2007-11-02T19:53:00.000+08:00

it's been a while...well was away. Had an "educational trip" to kl haha erm well a week ago...and wanted to post for ages but my computer just find ways to not allow me hehe...at first my mouse totally didn't work so it took me 3 days till i can finally use my com and after that another dreadful thing happen my internet couldn't be connected hahaha well at least i still have the "BROTHERS AND SISTERS" to company me hehe... anyways i have plenty of pictures to upload...it's all about fun fun fun fun and more fun !! in KKLLLL !!! hahaha...even though we had a few things that happened which not quite ruined it...haha anyways on the trip i was super super excited cause we're going to the F1 circuit...i know i know is just a circuit haha but seriously there might be the sports car there well specially waiting for me!! haha..sadly obviously there isn't any sports car after my friend break it to me haha well that's find i guess but the worst part is i didn't even get to see the circuit...seriously haha oh wells!!:):) well we went loads of places on the first day i must say...haha we went to this mosque which i barely remember haha how educational aih?? haha erm we went the prime minister's house which i will show u the pictures later eventhough it was said no taking photos allowed but you know me...haha well the tourguides did say they closed one eye so might as well haha so check it out...

that buildings seems so squarish but honestly it looks pretty grand:)
oh yea in our bus we saw this dude seriously...unbelievable discovery haha TOK JANGGUT is still ALIVE!! haha...haha if only!! well seriously he does look like him haha
don't they have resemblence???

oh this building is where we first stopped...well the mosque is there...haha

hot babes!!haha

seriously is barely afternoon and you're already dreaming?!? hehe

anyways at that place wewent to the shopping centre which i started taking photos with all the stuff there...but will have to wait cause all the pictures is with my friend haha will get it soon haha oh and plus we met new friends haha a family of angmo from Cambridge haha the picture is also with my friend haha... oh check this out!!

quite pretty aih?? it's like sydney even though is like 200% different haha

cool dude aih??tried to disturb him haha well he did blink haha (so lame)

cool car aih?? in the minister's house haha

in the kitchen

minister cooking??

seriously mine still looks twice better than that haha jkjk

cool aih?? dalmation horse!! scary but cute!! haha
everyone walked the simple way but instead me and come of my friends went hunting haha
after that trip we went to the chocolate factory haha yummy!!! chocolate!! haha delicious haha

yum yum chocolaticious!!!

it's really cool actually haha they sell the durian chocolate which kind og taste really not that bad haha...after that we ate dinner at aunty sam and then back to hotel and and and SHOPPING!!!haha the first totally bought 3 shirts all from F.O.S haha i guess that place is really cool hahaha
anyways more pictures to uplopad and more stuff which will be continued hahaha(suspens)

TO BE CONTINUED!!!:)

2007-10-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

breath of relieve....today, i talked to my mummy a little...i guess that's a good thing haha well i guess a step forward is better than standing still....so i guess me and my mum will get along well soon hahaha today my mum and dad suprise me by giving me a handphone...i totally didn't expect that hahaha i guess they just love me too much haha so perasan...well that's a way i know they love me hahaha anyways i'm glad that it's going to be an ancient story soon hehe my sister had just gone back to england today...well she came back from Canada few days ago..she be another hot pants and blouse..hahaha not only that i finally received her postcard...hahaha love it sis...haha ohh about the phone...it's a super cheap phone but i still like it hahaha i don't want it because a material might cause a chaos again...haha like the previous wan and the previous previous wan hehe :):) erm i'm like super bored now a days...so i started to cook and bake stuff practically everyday haha i made jelly, beef stew, sweet and sour fish, baked potato and vegetables, fruit puding and tommorow i'll be making brownies!!!! hahaha i made that in 3 days i think hehe...i hope my brownies turn out delicious as the rest turn out kind of good hahaha...i'm in charge of the christmas dinner presentations but due to unable to attend youth anymore...i asked joanna to help me out but i am still doing it just joanna will be the one telling uncle and stuff hahaha still cracking my head for ideas but i believe it will turn out great as God will guide us to give out best!! hahaha hopefully joanna and I will think of something incredible hahaha will see!!! haha it's getting late so i have to stop but still have to go and call joanna hahaha tmr post pictures...love ya!

total silence!!!

2007-10-16T10:10:00.000+08:00

my mum and I haven't spoke a word to each other till now...its been 1 day few hours since we talked...sometimes how i wish i could just take back that day and solve everything...but there's no such thing as time machine so i just have to stick to the reality...i just want everything to be back to normal...it's so hard!!!when will this end??? ARGHHHH!!!!!! i'm really going mad...everything that had happened there must be a lesson from it...but i can't think of any!!!i took care of it so properly already...what else am i suppose to do!! i'm just really confuse...the longer i stay in this house...i'll soon turn into a crazy lady...well that might happen as i can't go anywhere...wells!!how i wish i could drink starbucks right now...or haggan dazz ice-cream!!! i still wish i'm going england now...at least i could get away from this...well it's better to get away than stuck here being a dumbass in the house and just being ignore all the time...watever!!! i guess now i have to eat maggi mee again...i thought i wanted to follow daddy and mummy they all to eat breakfast with shermaine but i guess they wouldn't come back and pick me up...so another of maggi mee!! that's how it is now!!! i guess i have to get use to it!!:):)

can't hold on any longer...

2007-10-15T14:30:00.000+08:00

my eyes are totally swallon right now...didn't really sleep much well how can I?? my phone got stolen again!!!! that's not the only thing i'm piss about..the thing is is the second where my phone got stolen in a freaking youth gathering....sometimes i feel people telling others that they are christians and people expect christians to have the 10 comantments in their fingertips...but unfortunately not all has that...yesterday i went to the kids telematch youth party...and unfortunately my phone got stolen there when we were doing cleaning...before everything started i gave my camera and my phone to justin to care of it for me...and he did....he did a WONDERFUL job...but i took it back from him cause i thought he was going home or something and i put it in my bag...and started to clean the St Thomas hall...and the next minute i found out my phone got stolen...i just broke down at that spot...i couldn't breathe...it was so hard for me...i just fell right there...but everyone helped me...they hold me...guide me...comfort me...and i'm grateful for that....welll not everyone st least everyone that was there at that time...some had went home...obviously who steals something from other people and still stay at that place....it was hard before i got back on earth and realise this is just another satan's work....to destroy children of God...i may know that this is just a trap from the satan to go away from God...and phone is just a material so it wouldn't disrupt my spiritual faith....but.. but i had so many questions at that time welll i still am thinking about it...Why???Why is this happening to me??? Why twice???What is He trying to tell me???Why is it always me me me???only me??? Why???.....all the Whyssss just started popping out in my mind but no one can answer it only God...but now i have no idea how!!!
i realise after this incident that among my family i'm the worst...i'm the one that always cause the trouble...sometimes i just can't explain to anyone that it's not my fault....my mum was saying that she is so annoyed with me...she said even my sisters in UK call her if they want to go anywhere...and me?? i didn't call her when i went out last night...i told her i was going out...before i went out i told my dad...but i didn't call my mum cause she was visiting so i thought it's ok i told daddy so it's alright...but my mum got angry cause i didn't call her...i just don't understand...everytime if i go out i will tell my mum but my dad no...and my dad don't get angry...he just felt as long as my mum knows its fine...but why can't she knows that too???why???she felt it one time last nite how about my dad...he felt it most of the times...do u think is fair...well this morning wround 2 AM i even thought of running away...but i didn't...i thought of that because being here just hurts my mum more so why don't i just go...anyways is no use me being here...it's always my sisters (both) is the best....sometimes words from our own parents could just hurt us...and not only hurt us but even leave a scare in our heart...my dad and my mum always like my sisters more then me and my bro...we both know...we just kept quiet... both of us is always compared by them...we are always the useless one...well at least they ever said that to me...so i rememeber...being alone at home now....is so scary...i can't communicate to anyone...i can't even talk to my mom or dad...i'm the only child left now...all of this things...i know it doesn't mean my mum doesn't love me...i know she does...but sometimes what she say really hurt me a lot it's just she doesn't know...right now...i just want to burst out and shout super loud...but sadly i can't do that...my mum asked me to help her with the ipod...restore it and all...she don't get it...i restore it and all things will be gone...yea u sync it but all the songs that will go in the ipod will be the one from my com not the previous one....i've been trying to tell her...but she insisted it wouldn't and just now i went to their room to help my dad...she started scolding me saying i don't help her in anything...and insisted bout the ipod...i csn't explain to her...sometimes i really hav to agree with my dad that she is so stubborn...she always thinks she's right...fine!! sometimes she is...but sometimes she's not...she has to hear other opinions too....as me being the not smart unlike my sisters...obviously is hard...and now i just finish my pmr and if i don't get it...what else will they say...i thought i could prove to them that i can do it!!!...so we'll see!!!now...tears just can't stop flowing from my eyes...how i wish i could be in the beach right now....i miss me smiling...how i wish i could smile and laugh now...but even if i do smile now it's not cause i'm happy it will be totally just a fake smile..sigh...my eldest sis is coming back soon...well for 5 days...so i have to smile again...i can't talk to them about this because it's just so hard...because none of them understands...wells...i have no idea how to fix the router...
P.S i'm offically band to go to youth starting from now!!:( well practically all the youth activities...i only can go for the church service...only that!!!( i have no comment on that)---most of teh things i love to do i can't even do anymore...(lyk playing with the kids...spreading the word of God to them...study group-learning more- all i can't do anymore...fine learning more i can do it still...)WATEVER!!!

freedom

2007-10-07T01:17:00.001+08:00

i've finally finished my exams...yes!!!! my pmr is over...haha the papers was quite okay i guess it was moderate....welll i've tried my best so now is just up to God...i just surrender everything to Him...i was really glad that it is finally over on friday but i was kind of upset too due to the sejarah results...well the teachers collecting our papers cause she wanted to mark...so i was kind of relluctant to know cause i din want her to mark....when i got it back i totally couldn't breath i couldn't think...it's so hard to see me not getting an A for sejarah....i tried my best and that's all i got...i got B and when i saw i just wanted to shout out loud....unfortunately i can't do that in school eventhough i kind of did but it's not loud haha...but everyone told me soesn't mean i'll get B cause they might lower the standard so i might still get an A well it's up to God's hands...only Him can do miracles...He can do the immpossible things possible...only HIm!!! so i'll what happens when it's released!!!:) today i had a mother and daughter date hahaha after sending my dad off, me and my mum went to shop...hahaha...man i not only get to drink starbucks...FINALLY!!! i get to buy most of the stuff that i wanted hehe...i saw this braceletwell it's a charm bracelet... oh i love it...it's so nice...it's pure white gold i think...not sure...and it's RM1000++ ...wow!!! well so i had to think about it first haha...but i love it hehe...i bought my running shoes haha for jogging heheit's nike...i'll update the photos after i get back my camera....i forgot to say...i finally got back my camera after 3 months...wow!! that's long hahaha but at least i got it back haha i'm happy hehe eventhough it's not fix and my mum had to fix it for me hahaha or buy a new one...well we'll see...but i think fix loo...hehe i'll see what happens next week...haha...anyways i bought this blouse or can also use as dress in MNG today...wow it's so so nice haha....and also a vincci shoe...really nice too hehehe...everything that i bought i love it hahaha...then me and my mum ta pau Tom's home...hahaha wa!! so delicious hahaha...hahaha oh i forgot to use my phone to take the pictures...oh wells hehe:) wow it's so late!!! tommorow i still have church at 0900...hahaha...so i better go now...i'll update again tommorow!!!
till then love you!!!

confusion

2007-10-06T12:41:00.000+08:00

being alone is the hardest thing in life! well that was what i thought...but now i think looking for friends is the hardest thing !!! you don't know when they are real or they are fake!! that's the question that always been in my mind...this year i've experience a lot of things...i see people sad and i go cheer them up but after that what do i get...not asking for reward but when i need them where are they...this year i realise friends VS family....family totally wins...family we're all there for each other...no matter what...friends are tooo, i believe that they will be by our side... as they say they will but will they act on their words or just talk...not all friends are like that....only some:)you know it's so hard to trust in someone and the person just let you down and not only that but hurt you....it takes hope and faith and trust to ment the parts the has been broken into pieces... and when it's done there's a smile on your face but one day it will be broken again by the same people...they just don't get it and they don't learn from what they did....what do you call them???they are definitely here when they need you but are they here when they are having fun???what are they?? friends or users or what??? but i must say friends are great... like everyone says everyone needs a friend or friends....family, we may get hurt time to time...but they never hurt you again after they hurt you cause they learnt their mistakes... we can trust them too...GOd gave us this challenge because he wanted us to learn something from it....He give us a hard time in choosing friends because he wanted us to grow in trust in everyone before we find them...and to realise how important families are...well at least to me haha...

after birthday

2007-08-10T23:32:00.000+08:00

its been 4 dyas after my birthday haha...well in my dictionary my birthday last for 3 days haha on the 6,7 and8 of August haha....i received loads of prezzies...hehe well i had a mystery pig from one of my friends who i just found out who yesterday..haha...when i arrived the school and went to the classroom...i saw the big pig and few other presents on my table haha...i was quite surprised actually because i didn't expected that many presents haha....Timothy,Leo and Teddy, they didn't buy me anything so they wrote happy birthday on a paper...haha so cute...haha julian bought me a cuddly dog...it's so cute!!! i must say i received a lot of cuddlies this year haha my second sis bought me two bags haha...and the first sis bought me reload well she still owe me one more present hehe just kidding...my mummy bought me 3 tube blouses wow!!! i must say it's all so sexy hehe well very very very nice blouses haha...thanks everyone!!!well i must say everyone made my birthday really fun and happy...and i'm glad eventhough before my birthday there was so many things that happened!let see:

my camera never came back(sigh)

my maid ran away

about my maid, well she ran away on the 4th, what a day!! that day was suppose to be fun because it was the day my parents celebrated my birthday but because of the incident everyone was so piss...flipping heck!!! well my mummy called the agent and he don't even seem to care..sheesh rite??hello!! you are the agent haha that is not the worst part, he even acted like he is the pai kia..haha ya rite!!don't make me laugh!! it's like my dad ask him who is going to to "hootchet"-hokien - and he things my dad say him no "hoot"...sheesh..SERIOUSLY!! who cares you have "hoot" or not...and he was like shouting at my mum and scolding bad words...oh man if i just see him i really feel like slapping him...he has no rights to talk to my mum like that!!!well we suspected that he ask the maid to run away because the maid kept telling us he is her going-to-be husband or something... moreover he doesn't seem to care...seriously...haha

my mom went to see him on monday,which was on my birthday, just to ask him to pay our money back or give us another maid...but he told my mum his not responsible for it so his not going to pay or even give maid...so my mom just bang the table really lightly..i don't think i could call it a bang erm a hit then...and the agent just took out his badminton bag and took out a SAMURAI SWORD and pointed it at my mom....and he said"DO YOU WANT A TASTE OF THIS??" so obviously my mom just walk away....THANK GOD!! my mom wasn't hurt...really GOD IS JUST INCREDIBLE!! He will guide each and everyone of us like He guide my mom in everything we do...He protected her from getting and i am really glad....i don't know what i'll do if my mom gets hurt...wow!!Praise God!!

wow this birthday-so many drama!! well i'll update some pictures!!

2007-07-25T21:43:00.000+08:00

today is fine...had classes as usually...yesterday, our school had this MBR thing....malaysian book's of record...well we made it...we had 140 +++ kg of can leads...coool har..haha with my help...haha no lah....my sister and mummy went to kl yesterday to make their Visa to go to canada...they are going in august with my eldest sis,Shermaine....actually i'm looking forward for that trip for them...sigh*...i wish my sis or mummy is not going....maybe one of them go but not both....i just feel lonely at home...i know i still have my dad but what happen to my dad and i....welll it is just very hard to recover...sigh*...is like now...my daddy is alone and i am alone haha....and this is only 2 days...imagine them gone for 1 week ++...that's worst...i just don't know what to communicate with my daddy about...i don't know what is he thinking most of the time....you know my dad and I...we are like trying to impress each other...we are like trying to pass this path between both of us...i'm trying to cros over him so that i will know him...and his trying to do that too but it just never haapen...maybe it takes time...i just don't know how to communicate with him cause i'm always the one he seems like he dislike most but wells haha...i guess God guide every move i make...and He did help me now...He gave me things to talk to my dad about...even though is a very small and short conversation but at least it is something haha...''everything is going to be fine'' that sentence always appear in my head....everytime...and most of the times it works...haha...ohh today in school, for english period...we had to compose our own song that is veyr inspiration...but i am totally clueless....i am not inspired at all...still a paper blank for me haha...i guess i should follow the movie''music and lyrics''...haha...i can't wait for my sister and mummy to come back..haha tomorrow..yey!!...my mummy owes me four present and my 2nd sister owes me 3 hehe...and my 1st sis owes me two and my bro owes me 1 haha well they all agreed haha so yey!! haha we'll see...i made this coupon thing for my mummy with some help from my sister through msn haha... it cost RM300...i'll upload the pic...haha my mummy was laughing haha it was for her birthday and my daddy's birthday ...four of us bought him a timberland shoe..i chose it..haha with my mummy...it is very very nice haha okey..i have to go now...before that, Happy birthday Leo!!!i'll give you your prezzy on sunday if i remember hehe...

brithday

2007-07-22T21:14:00.000+08:00

well birthday is coming....i'm craving for a "few"things hehe...
let see...what i want..

a sunglasses(big want)

a purple monkey

manu jersey(no.8-rooney)

a cuddly pig

handbag

a platform peep-toe hills

a ring

a hood blouse(long sleeve)

slim-cut jeans

a pair of adidas slipper (or any brand)

purple jacket with hood

hot pants

purple shoes

watch(big big)

i guess that's it...can't recall anymore...haha a few aih..haha that list is still short haha...that is mainly the things what i want for my birthday...haha better go study now...

2007-07-22T18:28:00.000+08:00

just manage to upload today...finally haha... wow..i have so many pictures to upload...i got so many stuff to talk about...hmmm...first is about the wedding and then the birthday party and the visitors....ohh erm the new restaurant....and other stuff if i could recall..hahaha...i'll update about that soon...but not now...i have only such a short time to type so i'll leave that for another time...haha..well went church this morning...the worship was fantastic...well Chok lead..he was really good...as he always is...then after that i went to the sri sarjana seminar with Denise and Jon Chek....later on then my friend khang ngee came...so i didn't join the youths...the seminar was boring at first well they talked about motivation so obviously haha then Mr Lee, he gave seminar on science and maths...ohh he is really good haha so i might consider to go for his seminar during the august holiday...my brother went back already...so fast...ohhh i miss him...haha my eldest sister is coming back soon...on her birthday..still thinking of what to do for her...it must be special haha after her birthday the next week will be mine....hehe...yey!!my birthday's coming...haha well got all my results back for my term exam..sadly i did some of the papers badly...so geram so i'm really trying hard now...haha left 2and 1/2 till PMR...WOW!!! that is fast haha...hmmm that's it i guess...need to go study and eat my dinner liao...so i'll write tonite again about my birthday list...hehe

2007-06-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

*sigh...so many things is happening....i feel so petrified that more and more things will happen without any reason....these two days--yesterday and today-- my dad is in a very bad mood...his always showing black face to my mum...when my mum have been through enough actually!! yesterday they fought...i was in school at that time...my dad scolded my mom so terribly---sigh---its complicated...and today...he just scolded my grandma in a blue moon!!! pity my granny!! no one understands him....he just scold everyone and no one knows wad to do!! even my sister and I wanted to go out to buy a presant and other things...we had to borrow his car to go...obviously as our waja had been stolen long long time ago...but none of us was brave enough to ask his permission...so i was walking up and down again and again asking myself the same question," ask or not ask...dare or not...want to take the risk"...something like that...but i prayed and God gave me the courage to ask him...we are just like mices frightened by cats...sigh..his just a bigger cat..i'm always very scared when my dad is angry....i really don't understand him at all...i feel like he don't really love me as much as he love bee bee eventhough everyone will say he loves every child equally...but i do feel that because he always act differently towards me...whatever i say he will just say back at me in this tone of angerness... i really don't know him anymore....since the thing happen till now...my relationship with my dad is just so so different...his a very mysterious man!!! not only my dad was in a bad mood...i also got scolded by my mom...i confess to her about my camera because i felt uncomfortable lieing to her...she said that is not her problem so she wouldn't repair it for me and that i have to ask elaine to repair it...she even called her...and some other things...wells...it's so scary when my parents is angry...because now is only me at home....all my siblings is studying in overseas but luckily when all the things that had happen, my sister is back at home with me...THANK GOD!! haha....that's not the only comotion....when we came back from dinner...my kakak was sitting on the stairs and when i saw her i thought it was a ghost...haha eventhough i don't believe in ghost but with her long hair it really looks like pontianak...haha wells but that is not the comotion...she told us..."Lilo hilang!"(lilo is my dog)and that time i was so petrified...my heart beat quite fast haha and my thoughts just said" oh no...my best friend is gone!!" welll when i'm sad, i do play and talk to her...so when she was missing we all went to look for her...shouted her name...but no result...then my mum kept saying she will come nack so just go up...and we didn't hear but in the end we did what she said and i went to look for her in the house...in case she might ran in the house...so i search my mum's room but still nothing...then i almost gave up but there was someone telling me ,"don't give up...go on" so i opened my brother's room door and shouted Lilo in the dark...and you know what....Lilo was running out the room....and i was so happy....really happy...i derno wad it will be like without her in the house haha...that someone was God...and God was telling my mum to go up too...haha..PRAISE THE LORD!...today is a tough day....hope tommorow will be a great day as it is Father's Day!!welll you'll see tommorow...

back!!

2007-06-07T13:54:00.000+08:00

came back on the 3rd but then on the 4th went to youth camp...so fun but so sad my cam spoilt!!!!! so sad..sob sob*..i put on the shelf in my room then someone hang her swimming suit then the water drip and drip and drip...so piss!!!she derno anything about this though...most people asked me to tell her but derno yet...i haven't even tell my mummy!!!so gonna die!!well have to pray...he beach was so beautiful!!we went to lundu!!it's so beautiful...it reminds me of Bali!!!i wanna go again..wellmy twin went..haha..his name is kelvin chiong,nickname is ashley and sugar daddy..haha cute!!my pics is with him the one i took with him lar!! wanted to take so many pics but my stupid dreadful incident...sigh*..met kee hon,james and darren...just met kee hon la erm tay too....kee hon is pro in magic man...teach godric la..make him trick me..wakakaka!!!on the second day and third day i had gastric...it was so painful but i tried to hold it but somtimes i can't because it hurts a lot....played pool tooo yey!!din play football at all well kinna more to futsal!!sad* first day saw the moon haha at nite and the stars it so beautiful..never see anything like that...only julian and i like it..haha it was really really amazing...i need to take the pictures from cedric,ashley and some other people first...haha...my siter is coming back soon so i need her help with my camera..."thank you so much for helping me with my camera"to eric and julian!!!i miss my camera!!!well need to study...haven't study at all yet...ohhh PMR is so near and holiday ends so quickly...it's like a blink of an eye, the whole two weeks is gone...NO!!!wells
P.S thanks for the letters guys...love you guys!!!

2007-06-01T12:17:00.000+08:00

yey!! going to KL now haha going to the airport liao!see ya

2007-05-28T22:07:00.001+08:00

last day of school...celbration of teacher's day!!! cikgu danny was piss with us on thursday one day b4 the teacher's day haha guess he merajuk we didn't give him prezzy..his birthday...happy belated birthday cikgu!!! but he was so happy on friday haha..
hot guy!!loolz!
we had a party and assembly so took a lot of pictures...haha
taekwondo freak!! sit wif him everyday in school!!
thinking of who hoh?!?
look what is mr Ling holding...ooo so sweet for who hoh??so cute ar the teddy bear!!
eileen so soi!!
update more pics next time!!

Happy belated birthday mummy!!

2007-05-27T20:58:00.000+08:00

belated one...i luva you mummy...wanted to buy u flowers but no more liao haha who could have thought flowers could be out of stock...well so i had panick attack so i asked m sis for help which then i did dis card hahareally cool card is not really a card is more like a voucher haha show it to you some other time is with my mum...wait till i take it from him...haha had Toms cake wow is like 90 plus haha kevin brought me to take it but it was closed i was so shocked and scared that there wouldn't be any cake haha but then went home then Thank God the owner was there...haha he was waiting for me haha...we went to shanghai to eat..haha

reservation tag

on the way to somewhere
my wine and sprite

new soup we tried
got shark fins
prawn
crab
and scallop
yumyum!!
yummmy!!fresh prawn!!
yucks!!pork stomach!!
ooo spicy...
boneapetid!!
hazelnut choc praline..
too happy
yumyum!!
for my dog!!die looo
that's it end of the day just sleep ...i luva u mummy

drawing apart!!!

2007-05-27T19:27:00.000+08:00

feel so sad...just feel so down...i need someone to tell me God has a plan for me...and that everything that had happened is for a reason...i feel like my relationship with God is drawing apart..i just need to know the truth...i need to know that i have a duty on earth and that whatever i am is for reason..i just need God to tell me the answers i wanna hear...is not fair!!! is never is...why are people so heartless?!!?they think about others except themselves...what is this??and some of them call themselves as christians!!! why isit people like that always get the good things...they deserve all the good things...is never fair for others...i always say that watever happens God has a reason u know but is like is happening every single day...even people i trust can't be trusted anymore...there is so many i wanna say but is so hard to type it out...is the feeling that is so hard that is painful that i myself can't even discribe it...and i always say only God can feel the pain but now...i have so many questions that need answers...does God really know how i feel??does He know what i'm going through now??? does He knows that whatever is happening is hurting me?? if He knows why is He doing this to me??so does he know about me as i thought he knew about me??

delay 16th May

2007-05-26T18:59:00.000+08:00

teacher's day was on that day....our class 3B had a celbration for our class teacher at the lecture teater...unfortunely i have no pictures haha...well it was quite nice...meanting sweet...haha Mrs Yap was touched haha...wells daphanie and I bought a cake for our tuition teacher...she is very fun..Emogan...her nickname...her ear was filled with icing haha well i was the first to destroyed it haha...guilty!! look at her beautiful ear...haha the whole earring is filled with icing...eww

everyone enjoyed evem her!!haha is a good thing we got to waste time...wakakaka...so many pics to show...hmmm
cute cake ha!! Taka tag...DUH from taka!!

celebraty coming through...
the cake is destroyed by me...my fingerprints if you can see!!
Emogan!!

she is so touched by us and the cake:)

random picture

that's it i guess....great teacher's day!!!

2007-05-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

i'm so sick haha well exageration a bit here...i was in school so i went home like right before connie lau's class so yey i miss it...haha but who cares....that time was only 9.30 in the morning ...imagine that...i must be really sick har....well actually i was...still though a bit....lol i was freezing cold in school...my friends had to borrow me their jacket...haha i wore like 3 jackets...the winter type...imagine that haha i was still so cold though...i was quite sick...my head hurts so badly...i had my gastric again...it came back...my tummy was upset too...and i had fever...well now i only have gastric and fever....wow that is a lot...not really define as only har???haha...i only baked cheesecake...i was too tired and i was so dizzy so i can't stand baking muffins...haha it's so weird because usually i'm sick i don't like to eat anything but this time i can't not eat...haha well tommorrow is mother's day yey!! haha...so my family and i went out to eat at roak rock road restaurant...well that time i ate a bit but after that felt like vomitting so didn't really eat much....but the crab luks so delicious especially with the eggs haha look
delicious!!yum yum!!
but i only ate a bit...haha nothing reall happen today...i skipped tuition hahawells better sleep earlier i'm like so tired now...till then love ya

2007-05-07T16:50:00.000+08:00

last saturday i baked banana crumble and chocolate chip cookie....haha my mom said it was nice welll actually she relly love it haha...well next week is mother's day so i will be baking for her...i will be baking cheesecake and muffins...hopw it turn out good...haha i was kind of in rush when i was doing my cookie because it was already 5.00 in the evening and i had other plans which was going to calvary youth...well it was not bad haha i'm looking forward to go again haha i met douglas, samuel, nicole(ex-classmate),zareth(really sorry if wrong spelling--correct me ar), my cousins boyfriend erm not really anyone else...haha well see the time haha after that i went tomy own hime cell which really was quite sad...haha not the sad as in depress sad but an angry annoyed sad...haha i was just annoyed with some people there haha wells...but i must say i can't wait to go home when i was in church that time...cause is like me being there is just an extra wall....no one really cared and stuff..what i meant is that watever they say or discuss, i can't really say anything...not like some other people you know.... but wells haha erm on sunday was not that bad haha...i had youth and after that some of the youth including me went to eat..i was so freaking hungry...haha and we met the calvary people there again haha ooo douglas wore purple stripes T-shirt...not bad lah...haha well i had "tikus" mee haha and teh si peng...

my teh si peng in thompson

paul's car came quite early and cedric haven't even touched his drink yet so he drank it so fast...guess what happens???
BRAIN FREEZE!!!!
nothing really much happen after that...i made kevin waited for me till i go home...wakakaka..i am so mean..he had to walk home alone...mom picked me up and we went to buy this sate place at capenter street that sells pork sate...haha the cha kueh was really nice...the apek wan...haha..after that just go home nia liao...i didn't even sleep for the whole night till shool time...fine!! at least two hours...onli!!! i couldn't sleep....now i'm so tired..haha..better go need to study...got competition tommorrow...lets see wat i get har??

2007-05-02T21:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday natalie came to my house haha ruined my mom's plan to go shopping haha we did so many stupid stuff haha crazy stuff actually.....she wore some of my clothes haha well all my clothes that she wore still looks hotter on me...haha...just kidding...well at 4 i went to secret recipe with my mom including nat...the food there was erm okay for the pies but the cakes was quite a disapointment haha it wasn't that nice....this cake

yucky oreo cheese cake

the texture was so jellyie haha there were no taste of cheese haha oreo cake was suppose to be one of teh cake in my top ten list but is like 11....the service was quite bad haha well i guess they just opened...anyways nat stayed in my house until 9 something at nite haha
i can't believe she didn't know how to open the ice cream pack...haha she tried but it broke...look

nat what are you doing??

CAMOUFLAGE!!!

was too bored!!!lolz...

random picture...

natalie took this while she was flirting with some of the guys on msn(including not knowing that person)haha...wells
natalie injured me yesterday...i have like a big bruise on my hand well is kinna big..haha
that's for yesterday haha well today went to taman sahabat for the first time...haha wanted to go to eat the tim sum but it was close so sad haha so went to crown square well it was okay haha after that went shopping haha.....wanted to go watch movie but my dad was still on travelling so didn't want to leave my mom alone haha well bought two blouse...i check out the sunglass in MNG...the sunglass that i want...it was RM79 i think...it's so nice....i want that haha well any sunglass will do as long as i have one by this year haha...after that we went to Sri Shan to buy some food back haha nothing much but it was quite nice...haha Indian Food!! haha well that's it...i had to finish my project which i kind of did..haha that's all....bibixx

2007-04-30T18:28:00.000+08:00

On saturday night, i went to this christian talk at St. Faith main church by Rev.Vernon Fall from U.S...it was really good...haha he did erm miracle prayer to people that needs it and that night a lot of miracle happens...Praise the Lord!!! there's this lady who was healed that night...Her leg was in pain she couldn't really walk but after that night chould well walk even dance... when Rev was praying for her and other peple that has leg pain, she jumped up and started jumping..and everything was so well she jumped so happily...HALLELUJAH!!! Miracles can happen if only we had faith in God...Just pray and Believe that God can make everything possible...Everything can happen if we just believe!!! Rev asked people who has asthma to come to the front so that he can pray for them... i went up and I believed God healed me i was touched and he prayed for me and the next minute when i open my eyes i was on the floor...i believe with all my heart that God is so powerful that he can do anything....not even sickness or fear can be stronger then God's strength...after that a lot people who wants to recieve Jesus was led to another room and Rev's wife told us about receieving the Holy Spirit and believe in the Holy Spirit...that night we all spoke in tougues just like what the Holy Spirit could do...I know i did...eventhough i didn't know what was i talking about but i know it is all good...the devil cannot stop me from worshiping God...after that it ended and i took some pics haha i took a pic with some guys from

Inti-college..well i only know one haha the want next to me..haha the other two is unknown people haha but still look great in the picture haha

Two body guards..wakakaka...

after the talk we wanted to go secret recipe at least me and rachel wanted haha but eric only the mother kancil haha which is kelisa so it can't fit 7 people haha so end up maryann's mom brought some of us to tabuan jaya...haha end up we didn't go secret recipe haha we went siang -siang but some of us went to kaya toast haha
i was too crazy so i took crazy photos too haha

greedy greedy me haha godwinna's mouth and half her nose haha

me eating haha godwinna waiting for someone to feed her

Godric's RM5 drink...Joanna what are you doing??

lolz that's it haha after that eric brought me home haha that's it..bibixx

SALVATION ARMY!!

2007-04-30T18:12:00.000+08:00

i went salvation army last week to play with the kids and they were so great....everyone acted like they all are brothers and sisters in blood but they are in relationships....they work together play together...they are very caring and giving....i met this girl by the name of lily...she is very nice...she includes people in and she plays with them...she is in primary shool now...erm they had a pet too a dog...which almost ended my life...haha well i'm just exxagerating haha well i took picture with the dog...and it seems nice but when lily called to play with her with the dog, i pet the dog gently but suddenly it just jump up fiercely and almost biten me but it missed...THANK GOD!!! naughty me i guess... The kids are great...they so cute pretty handsome...i played a game with them and i tell you it was so frustrating haha the game was um like we had to climb to a chair and slowly pass the chairs to connect the line so that we can squeeze the on top of teh chairs until the finish line haha well we finish the line first but the worst part was that we had to form a line and each person had to squad on each others leg and start walking again to the beggining of the line haha it didn't sound that hard but till u play u will know that is so annoying because our laps must join or else we must start again haha...but it is a really fun game haha everything went well...it was very exhausting...i'm really glad that i went to play with them eventhough it makes me to miss a tok from a few people from australia that week and the same time...haha but it was a best choice!!! i can't wait to go another trip there...i miss them so much...i tok to the uncle to let us have a trip there to play with the kids but he said um it takes a lot of work but if a lot of people wants to go then it might be considered...haha hope to see them again....

mama's birthday

2007-04-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

alor nice rite the cake.....my grandma birthday haha it was celebrated on the day i quarrelled with my mom haha my bro was still there...it was celebrated at shanghai restaurant hahawwell Happy 77th birthday mama haha

SLOW!!!

2007-04-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

it's been one month plus i didn't blog..sad well i have been my exams which i did quite okay...some of the papers was quite dissapointing like science erm maths paper 2 and some others...well i must say i didn't read through for maths form 1 and 2 so i kind of forgot about the circles so i kind of lost all my marks at that part...i know on thursday was the next day after my exam which we got our test papers back and it was kind of my worst day...well i got all the bad test papers back and early in the morning i fought with my mom...she said some hurtful things to me but i started it...i never thought she will say something so hurtful, you know....haha well my bro was back at that time...but now he is gone again haha...he bought me a purple shirt which he knows is my favourite colour but it was so huge haha i had my exams during the time of Good Friday...and we had to sit for exams on Easter Monday where everyone had holiday but well i didn't mind haha at least we get to finish the exams earlier haha...ohh after exam some of my friends and I went out... the guys were at star jamming haha the guitar and the drum were cool haha ohh we watched Mr Bean. the Holiday haha it is so funny and stupid haha well i guess that is a movie filled with laughter haha which i needed on wednesday haha i wasn't really myself that day as i recalled...well oohhh yea Caleb's birthday was on 12th which i forgot...haha well i guess the drawing in the diary was a waste of time haha well we drew each others book to remind each others birthday but i guess it didn't work for me haha... i feel bad though but he got prezzy from me so hehe...i guess nothing much happen after that haha

everything is fine!!

2007-02-26T17:03:00.000+08:00

God answered my prayers...he could do miracles...he could turn impossible things to possible...how great is He?? at first i couldn't stand here in Kuching but after i pray everyday so that God will help me in my life and He finally answered my prayers...and now everything feels like it's back to normal...if you believe and have faith in Him, he will answer your prayer...even though sometimes i feel a bit left out but i noe He will always be there with me and i can talk to Him...always and forever...today, school re-open and teachers is really killing us now by giving us so many test...February is going to end soon and PMR is getting and that makes my trip to England nearer too...haha i'm planing to go there end of this year to see my sisters alone muahahaha..so my mom say most probably i could go do well this year so have to work hard...haha but it's like a 50 % 50 % ...my mom say okay my dad is still a question mark...well have to work hard for my first term so i could at least ask my dad because when my mom kind of told him he thinks it was a joke but so need to make serious...wish me luck???? Pray that God will help me but i have to help myself first...Thank god everything is fine now...!!!

FRIENDS!!!

2007-02-26T16:50:00.000+08:00

i thought friends are suppose to be there for us all the time and not just when we need them or when something bad happens or they need help then they come to you...if you say you're my good friend you would sms me or call me or email me or chat with me time to time to know how am I and all and not just say that you are my good friend and you don't do it..and why isit that if we are good friends and it's always me who say how are you???and bla bla bla then u start asking me too...why isit never u??? show it to me that you really meant what u say(that we're good friends)!!but all this time if i recall i've been the one that starts the convo...friends,is no use saying that you are my good friend if you don't show it because you will never noe what is going in my life whether i'm sick or devastated or happy or got kidnapped or something..well if i'm kidnapped i can't talk to you so at least u noe something happen to me..hmmm...so why don't you try to start the next time or even now!!!

sadness that will never fades away till miracle happens

2007-02-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

tears in my eye will go away...i practically cry everyday now...in my room sitting in a corner or lieing on my bed...it just can't stop u know...i don't know how i feel...i just know that i can't do this alone any longer...i just want everything to be back to normal u know...u know, now if i'm alone in my room or in the car with my parents sitting alone behind...you'll see tears rolling down my cheek...i just can't stand being alone everywhere i go...to my room to the kitchen every site i go it is just me myself and I...i can't stand...no one knows how i feel right now...even i am shading tears right now while i'm writing this...but i believe God will help me get through this...He will...and i will try to stay strong...i need my sisters and brother ...any of them will do...how am i going to concentrate on my studies if this happens to me again and again...i just can't cope with it...i just wish sometimes my parents know i feel and try to change things u know so they can help me for not feeling like how i feel now!!!i really wish someone would just tell them it is best if i go study with che che or ko ko now cause i'm to lonely at home and i can't concentrate and they would try to listen to it and think about it...even though i am young... i just need my siblings to be with me...i know i got my parents but it is different u know..so i really wish God will send someone to tell them u know...i can't do this anymore...u know so many times i feel like i want to commit suicide but i remember it is sin so i can't i just want this to be over u know but it wouldn't be until 3 more years...i believe Lord will help me get through this and will do something to help me...i can't leave alone...it is just to hard...my close friends is also leaving ...bernard is leaving tonite..oh he left oledi to russia...and others which haven't leave yet..soon...everyone is leaving...i can't survive alone...i need my sisters and bro....please mummy and daddy send me to study with them...i can't do this alone... i need them...pls!!!i dunno what else to say but just hope and believe in God that he will do miracle things to help me...i know God is always here with me which i can tok to and not be alone but it's different...that uis not what i meant of bieng alone...God is always with me but i just need them...if you know wat i mean...pray for me...mummy and daddy think about it...why not right!!!:(*infinity

2007-02-21T13:37:00.000+08:00

well yesterday was fun...eric came to pick me up at 6.45 am...wow!!! that's early...haha we went to uncle boon hoe house to meet the others...aunty cooked breakfast for us...didn't eat though..too early to eat...haha well overall i think we went 17 houses haha not sure i didn't count just heard about the schedule thing...my house was the last haha...17 houses:elaine,joanna,uncle ivor,julian,maryann,bernard,uncle jeffrey and more to go....i took alot of pictures...well exagerating actually hehe cause my cam died out on me during the visiting...haha...well it was fun...every house i changed car to go another house...muahaha..but there wasn't that many car in the end too so i used chok's car most of the time...ohh today...wake up quite early to meet JJ at the supermarket to give him his camera...opps forgot to give him back yesterday...hehe..anyways...now i'm freaking bored...there's like nothing to do at all...seriously it's so boring....need to find something to do...haha..well let see what to do!!!

2007-02-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year!!!it's me again...well at first, it was so boring!!! my parents just practically slept the whole morning!!!until my uncle wanted to come and visit us then they woke up so it's like the whole morning was wasted but at least i went church...haha well so i had to cut the cakes prepare everything and i need to prepare the drinks and all...my father open a bottler of wine and didn't even leave a single drop for me...sob sob!!wells...so after they left we went back to our rooms and do nothing again and i was quite frustrated because i wanted to go my granny's house so yea!!so i shouted and say "Kia lo" and that kind of work....we went my uncle's house who came back from saudi arabia....cool har...haha.and went to my another granny's house and after that we went back home to get my mom's keys for the office...when my mom walked up the stairs he smelled something burning so she ask my maid whether she did cooked anything but she kept saying no but the smell was quite strong so my mom oso satu hal lah she didn't go and open the door and check so she just locked up everything and came to the car....but then the maid shouted for my mom because she remembered that she cooked something so when my mom open the door...she went to the kitchen and saw the whole pot turned black and the clothes that she cook to clean it was totally burned,"hangus"...wow...luckily the fire was small... Thank God!!! praise the Lord that he showed the way to come back and get the key and convinced us or i think the whole house might be burned down by now and i wouldn't be writing this down...haha..Jesus can do many things to save us if we just believe him and follow the light!!! so we went to my granny house and after that went to uncle Richard house and he is staying with his sister because his house got caught by the fire so yea...and went to eat dinner with two uncles and my granny...we went holiday inn and that time i was already lazy and bored to even wait for the food...but of course i still waited...there were so many people and my father ordered sat meal so it consist of 8 or 9 dishes...WOW!!!...we "ta pau" a lot haha but during the dinner, guess what happen??? You can't believe what i'm gonna say...Zhang Dong Liang = Nicholas Teo , actor from pasta in taiwan was eating dinner at the same restaurant as me which is at holiday inn...My God!!! i can't even believe my own eyes when i saw him...so of course i went up to him and say hello and we shake our hands and he said happy chinese new year...hehe and i ask him to take a picture with me and he was kindly to take one...wow!! and after that my mood and my day turn upside down...i became so excited and all...haha....look up there!!! the picture, nice???? why i don't look that nice in that picture, my eye is totally close ...i guess i wasn't that prepared...haha...okay i sound quite crazy about him ,don't i???haha i'm not crazy bout him... it's just in kuching you never get the chance to meet any rock star so this is a coincidence that i met him so of course i will go high haha ... in one in a million of rock star you only see one in kuching ir maybe not by chance...so he is okay, it's just that hmmm...man i'm lucky...muahaha...i know it's not a big deal for some people but for me it is unless i meet another rock star u know!!!Jealous???haha jkjk... i guess that brighten up my day haha let see what will happen tommorow..haha maybe i will meet mcdreamy har!!! haha in my dreams...like that will so happen...ohh i can't wait for the next episod and fine out wat will happen to meredith...derek cried and i actually cried but i always cry in sad and touching movies haha that's me haha info: i did cry a bit in some parts of the series in smile pasta...haha so notice: must watch greys anatomy...ooo i can't wait till the next epi..the best part it just hanged there and make me wait for a week but it is worth while waiting i tell you...muahaha...well that's all for now we will see what will happen tomorrow...haha...MCDREAMY!!!

it's never enough

2007-02-17T20:03:00.000+08:00

why isit so hard to live in this world??i'm never good enough for you...why don't you understand that i'm are just human...human beings are not perfect...why am i not good enough for you???i'll never will be,will i!!that is still a question mark!?!?

Believe in your heart

2007-02-17T18:32:00.000+08:00

every year ,every chinese new year, my dad always sell a lot of "lokam" and this year it just finish in a snap...i know my dad told me he sell a lot oledi and he said only 9000 boxes left...man that's a lot..well but not to him...i happy that he believe that God will help him finish selling all of this "lokam" by cny...well God answered his prayer...last year was a disaster because it was oledi almost cny and there were 4 more containers in the port filled with "lokam" and my dad just can't take it from them yet because i dunno some techinical stuff...not really sure...so i'm glad that this year the sells is excellente'...Every year there will always be the same problem happening...and now it's happening....but everytime this happens i believe in my heart that God will make everthing right...so i just heard from dad that the person that owes everyone money is going to come to my house...it is a good thing cause he is goin to pay my dad now....and i was so relieve when i heard that...when my dad is angry , he will be angry with everyone and will "choi su" with everyone so practically we talk to him that time ...and his not even happy when we were eating dinner...well i understand , who wouldn't be upset and angry if someone owes u a few thousand so yea during dinner the phone rang surprisingly it was that ass---- guy so and he said what wat my dad wanted to hear...and that minute the speed of my heart beat just slow down...remember God will answer our prayer if we just believe in him in our heart...if you JUST BELIEVE!!!

WORDS UNSPOKEN

2007-02-11T15:42:00.000+08:00

words not told to anyone except yourself and God...words that are hard to share will always be in our heart and slowly we suffer it alone...it's too hard to be alone...as now i am alone at home...living by myself with my parents...they just don't get it...they always don't...i have to suffer this for 3 more years..HOW CAN I SURVIVE THIS???it's just to difficult...where's everyone!!! since jerry is gone, my mum just target on me...it's so annoying...i can't do anything that actually please her...she may do some stuff that i want , well that is a good thing right?? but what i want is her to understand me...well not only that she just can't stop nagging..well that is what parents suppose to do but HELLO give me a break, man!!! u expect me to stay with my books 24/7 meh?? everything i do is just wrong to her except studying..obviously!!! i am in form 3...i don't mind her her lecturing me but don't u think that i wouldn't go siaw if she continue doing that!!! I just can't stand it...every minute if she see me not studying she start saying me again...Hello!!! just right after i ate just now and I lie down for a while and unfortunately she came into my room and start lecturing me again that i don't study and all...that point... she may be right sometimes but not all the time...now is only 4.03 and i think she nag me for about 3 times i think or 4 maybe 5 haha don't bother counting cause it's gonna be a lot..this year is goning to be a really hard year for me to cope...no one backing me up when i am in trouble..no one to talk too...man,i need someone here to be with me at home...anyone!!! shermaine, bee, jerry, any of them!!! or even i can go study with them... like that will ever happen!!! well at least I have God by my side right but still...u know what i mean...i guess my wish for this year is to be have anyone back home or i study with them at overseas!!Let God answer my prayer...suffering alone is the hardest thing u can ever do...letting it out is the best thing...

2007-01-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

time pasts too quickly...the first minute i was little baby and my siblings was playing with me and the next everyone is gone...but well life still goes on...haha...i'm all alone at home now...my bro's in melbourne and my two sisters is still in UK...all alone!!! at least still have my parents and my friends haha anyways this year is a PMR year for me so i really have to concentrate on it haha...at least my bro is goin to be here in June which is hlf of the year but sadly his not goin to be here on my birthday...that's sad haha His studying in Taylor's college now in Aus which i was suppose to send him there with my mom but there wasn't any ticket for me!!! hmmm....sob sob...!!anyways there might be chances for him to be back in March ,will see!! that's all!!will tell you bout the holi's soon!!!

delay stories

2006-11-22T09:32:00.000+08:00

hello!! well as you know i finish my school already...i finished last friday..well after school caleb and pei yao splash water at me so my dress was totally wet...haha actually i splash them first hehe..so after that a few of us met up at pizza hut at jalan song somewhere there lah khang ngee went to cut her hair at equip...man is damn expensive...kylie you so owe me 25 bucks man..hehe..well so watever...haha NO APOLOGIES!! was on the 18 and 19 at good news church...haha so it's bout not having sex before marriage la haha..must stay abstinence and all..okay...anyways this month i need to go to church for the rehersal for uncle chris wedding...congratulations uncle haha...need to find a dress badly for the wedding haha...my aunt Betty is comin back soon...and aunty lisa too..my brother's sitting for spm...well his gonna finish on the 4th that's really quick haha...Good Luck form 5's...wouldn't be on9 starting from today cause my bro's having exam and all haha that is so sad hehe...that's all i guess....good luck bro!!

2006-10-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

okay so i was suppose to write on the day i finish my exam which was friday, 20 October but some ehings came up...i came home late from school and just slept the whole day until 4.00... i guess that's the things that came up...hehe...well i went to Bryan's party that day...and Bryan that's a nice party haha...shared presant with Poh choo cause last minute mah...haha...okay so after that day was already holiday...so on saturday i went shopping with my mom...which was the most unmemorable mother and daughter day haha..we went to MNG but there's like nothing cause most of the clothes i saw it in kl already haha...anyways at least we went out...after that i had youth and i was leading them study...well it was quite bad actually but at least i tried...haha i really tried...it's just my first time...watever lah..i had youth on sunday which was okay actually we actually had the meeting just to talk about some activities..haha i'm going to help in the year end youth party and i'm also doing this sketch for Uncle chris and Aunty josephine's wedding on the 2 of Dec haha...can't wait actually...tell you more about the sketch other time..haha well after sunday i didn't do anything except eat watch korean movies, hong kong movies ad sleep....haha except yesterday i went out with the teens...so one more day then my mom will be back...yay!!can have new clothes haha...not much actually haha...okay that's all actually haha... i'm gone now...!!

tick tock tick tock

2006-10-25T20:42:00.000+08:00

Time is ticking fast....ooo..it's passing so quickly..haha..we're gonna need to go home soon haha...well you might be wondering where i am now..i'm in eric's house now with the teens...the teens went out today...so kind of have to type this really quickly...we went to Harts to day 12.00 noon and saya kena cia..haha by aunty Julia but quite pai seh..hehe i have a lot of stories i wanted to say...but my stupid internet at home don't aork so thank God i came to Eric's house hehe take the advantage hehe seriously just kidding..hehe i was hoping i could find nice dresses today but can't find any,all so weird and funny looking in other words ugly haha...i really want a dress....haha..my parents are now in china so sad i'm not there haha...my mom bought me a jacket she said it's nice so can't wait haha...we wanted to go to watch movie but in the end we went to aunty julia's to watch which is a better idea...i'll continue the story later at home maybe if my internet work...Joanna and all the other teens is calling me now and Denise wantto use the computer so i have to go actually or she wouldn't stop bugging me...going to watch Accepted now...

2006-10-20T06:33:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored....mummy forgot to wake up so we're kind of late..haha well, you must be wondering why i still have time to write blog har..?? lolz...well i'm done..i'm ready to school...after today's exam a lot of people's going out but I don't think i am..haha quite lazy actually...just wanna be in my room...and sleep haha...arrr...it's so late already and i haven't even get my stuff and worst part is today i'm going to sit my art exam but i haven't choose my question yet...haha...better go...i'll be back in the afternoon at 3.00 o'clock!!!

sneaky..sneaky

2006-10-18T19:25:00.000+08:00

ok today i had my exams still have 2 days to go...had science 1 and 2 it was okay actually hope can get a lah..maths 2 was really hard there wasn't enough time so that's quite sad haha anyways i will tell u the story tommorow afternoon...i'll be free by then cause on friday which is the last day of exam i only have art and maths which i totally don't have to study haha...well i can't say much now cause i'm suppose to study but i am quite tired of studying and also quite sien sien lah being traped inside my room like prisoner haha that's sickening...well tommoroe having literature, kh and computer...computer is seriously stupid i read this set that teacher gave us consists of 7 pages and i totally don't understand a word...dunno wad talk about bus network and what crap lah!! dunno lah all the SHIT!! nuts man... ohhh i better run before my daddy and mummy finds out and fire me with machine gun..haha...BANG!!BANG!!..haha..=P

2006-10-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

people changes but in the end their still the same as before

2006-09-30T13:27:00.000+08:00

Some friends ar like the moon and the sun
sun is always everyone's favourite
everyone will always there with it
never go away cause everyone's there
but when the sun set everyone slowly fly away
one by one
pairs by pairs
group by group
until not a soul is left
then the moon rise, everyone leaving the moon alone
crying depressed all by itself....
but when the sun is too hot like hell
they will be running to the moon
and hopes everyday that the time will past faster and faster
till it reach night
and when it's start being cooler again they will just repeat everthing again

it's like someone being the moon and some of his or her friends is the sun...when they have a lot of people to talk to they just desert you but when they are left alone they will come to you...and when they need help they will come to you like the people running to the moon when disasters strike... and the moon is always there for the people when they are in trouble like you when your friends are in trouble at least some but some i just dunno...

sun and rain are like buddies
they help each other out
when it's to hot it rains when is to cold
the sun shines

it's like you and your family *(some friends,of course) your family will never leave you in any trouble you are in...they will always there for you and never apart..

THAT'S ONE THING I'M GLAD TO FINALLY LEARN...!!

people just can't change anymore

2006-09-30T12:42:00.001+08:00

u know sometimes its like u think that person has change but he or she must prove u wrong....it's always like that...i thought a lot of my friends have change this year but they prove me wrong yesterday....why is it like this... why must it always be this way??? why?!why?!why?! anyone can u answer this question??? last thought people will just never change in life....from what i know...Some people are just going to be like devil and some are like angels... u never hear angels turning into devil and devil turning into angels rite...so it's just like real life...i used to think that people can change if they want to its up to them whether they change or not...it may be hard but we'll suppose to try and try until we succeed... but the only thing i noe is people just can't change ANYMORE...!!!!

2006-09-15T20:29:00.000+08:00

Check this out.... Wentworth Miller hot ohh the main actor known as Micheal Scofieldthe want wearing blue t-shirt...in the story he saves his brother from an innocent excecution of the vice president's bro's death...his bro Lincoln Burrows which is the guy behind him in the picture...season 2 come out loh...at last...quite long liao lah...they already escape from prison but got this police damn smart man....he figured out about the tatoos on micheal's body check this....the picture of micheal on top..cool har his tatoo..but a bit scary lah...that is like the map of fox river and the escape....cool man...!!!can't wait for the next episod to come out...well ntg much lah must watch nia..haha Group picture!!the want on top has mainly all the characters in season one....the guy behind the old man is the bad guy who work for the vice president...the girl in the red blouse died in the end...micheal likethe girl in blue with a white coat in the end...he did before actually hehe...wells...not gonna say more of the story ruined the story line nia...haha..=)

Camping trip

2006-09-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

i just came back from church camp yesterday....it was so fun ...i went on saturday noon we reach there then went to the room but found out that the guys room was another floor so we beg elaine's mum to trade her room with us....well our plan work..hahaha after that we had games we wanted to go to the beach but it's to far u noe lah santubong resort the beach so far want not like damai....so we just stayed at the hall...we had games so we were divided into 4 groups.... my group one of the aunty go pull me to be the cheer leader...uhhhh...dunno what to cheer ar haha...so our team name is love strike cool har...hehe so one of the game is sheep and shepherd and our grop make mooo sound haha another grop mimimi haha cute...we even played the longest line...haha our group was the longest line man...even the men in our groups took of their clothes some only lah haha...stupid man but at the end they say something like this games are not suppose to win but to have fun so the shortest line won stupid rite haha but it's really fun we don't really care whether we won or not as long as we had fun haha...our group at the end of course last lah our talent time so last minute we did it in 5 minutes time ar...it's quite cool u noe haha..we did this couple dancing loving each other and some talk lah haha...for that we only got 2 points well haha after all the games got baptism leh...but i didn't go cause got worship practice..the songs we sang was really nice...God is moving, till i see you one way and others we did it for that nite before our talent time...it was really good cause all the adults and youth actually did the dancing actions everything with us so it's really fun anyways after everythng we went to the guys room to have party we stayed up to 2 then we go back to our own room haha we played mafia i think it's spelled like that haha...we ate chicken wing and junk food but then we can't slepp so the guys came to our room to play bluff until 3 i think but till then everyone quite sleepy haha so everyone went back and 2 of the girls was already fast asleep so me daphane and grace escort the guys back well terbalik ar...then kene lock out we tried to call the girls inside but they couldn't hear owells so we end up sleeping at the guys room i wanted to sleep on the bed but it was the guys room so i slept on the coach aiyo i can't sleep ar haha..anyways before that actually i was going to sleep with the guys dah but the gurls don't allow so nvm loh coz no place to sleep 5 person haha no place and the guys 3 person mah so still can fit one so i wa going there but kena larang cannot loh but at the en oso sleep there haha...well the next morning got church service didn't go lar i jaga the kids..hehe we wake up early in the morning to go to the beach but the gate wasn't open so we wanted to climb so i was trying to climb but the gurls didn't want except me so at the end we end up in the room then we go eat breakfast then go to beach again that go swimming loh aiyo the stone the sea so sharp ar now my foot got so many cuts haha painful again so hard to walk ar...luckily we stayed there for allow nia haha...anyways got to continue tmr my dad scolding liao cause using his computer later i can't sleep he scold all night continue tmr...got oral exam anyways..haha

Horror,terrifying

2006-09-04T19:19:00.001+08:00

the past school holiday was kind of scary for few days...where i went to kl...u noe now all the arab ppl come to kl to stay for one month cause of the war so there's no place to stay ....we were force to stay at this hotel which is so.....no comments...it's called Dorsett btw..as i think most of u heard of at jalan imbi..where u hear a lot bags or anything got snatch or something happen....jalan imbi is most top place to get snatch i think.... as i mother got snatch ...the stupid thief snatch her hand bag....Hello!! we're in a holiday u noe...so we were expecting to have a sweet holiday and expect to buy a lot of things...unfortunetely he had to come and snatch it...urgh... is was really scary i tell u i was the first person to walk again...i was totally trembling..u noe my dad told my mom to walk inside cause later her handbag will be snatch so she walk in side and for goodness sake a man(dad) was beside and the thief actually dared to snatch it.my parents didn't even noe ther's a motocycle coming...when he snatch my mom's bag, my dad didin't even noe until my mom shouted..dad started running but it was no use...i was in front so of course i started running but then my shoe came off uhhhh...so wrong so wrong...my mom was like so sacred...seriously u hear stories about it u wouldn't be careful yet until u experienced it u'll forever be careful..my mom told me the first she tought when the incident happen was her LV bag and LVpurse which she just bought in UK few months ago but never use it b4 till we go to kl....so unlucky man...i guess it all started with a bad day already on the way to the hotel my father's taxi got knocked by another car....so that day was pretty bad and it was the first day again...goodness...in the handbag....seriously a lot of things...

the boarding passes-which we need to go home to kuching u noe...to claim it we need to pay 175 ringgit more..that's ridiculous ..it's not like we ask the thief to come..come come come thief snatch my mom's bag...WATEVER...haha
money maybe 800 lah luckily she haven't change

of course ic and so on lah...

anyways it was over so can't do anything...i am still scared and especially fear of motocyclist now...seriously...well,last thing is to be careful at all times...that is one of the thing i will remember forever hopefully....

Past 14th birthday

2006-08-17T18:34:00.000+08:00

today is 11 days after my birthday...well sadly i din't write any on my b'day...seriously,it was okay in the morning it was fun..u know i go to sfec church so they have this thing like every new month they will list out the people's birthday on that month and also giving them presants...haha..and i didn't register yet so my name wasn't called i didn't care actually but my youth friends shouted my name pretty loud actually...haha..well..it was fun..the worship on that was nice...mervyn um this guy studying in russia he actually could speak russian haha..he is a great worship leader..hehe..so anyways i ate one of my favourite....haha..korean food...ooo is so delicious but unfortunetely the place i went to eat wasn't nice at all..eww..fine it wasn't that bad actually(exaggerating) haha seoul garden is so much nicer but my b'day was on sunday so it wasn't open hmmm sad the bimbimbab i ate was extremely not nice..it doesn't have taste at all...hmmm...so i really wanna eat korean food again....ey who could bring me to eat...haha...my dad doesn't like korean food so it's pretty hard for me to eat that type of food even japanese haha...anyways it was a good birthday as always haha this year was different actually i mean the food..haha..oh yea...i got more presants this year actually hehe...a lot of cuddlies hehe sooo cute haha and cards...there's this small bear pink colour want it's so so so cute...and the dog too..haha well i can't remember anything else actually haha

countdown to my birthday

2006-08-03T19:36:00.000+08:00

yey...my birthday's coming..hehe 3 more days to go actually kind of two..not celebrating lah...haha can't wait..hehe 060806 is the date on sunday hehe hmm no story yet...we will see what happen on that day then...haha..

2006-08-03T19:09:00.000+08:00

i know this is very over haha...anyways we all went to my mom's launchinglong long time ago hehe...anyways..check some of the pictures..

Past launching..

2006-07-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

well, on saturday was really rushing actually...we had to get dress so quickly..i didn't even noe what to wear haha...it went really well actually...the book was in ice..How cool is that???but the person that crack it...crack it so slow..the sound effect was really cool and nice..check this out..on the right..cool har..haha..

2006-07-21T20:18:00.001+08:00

A lot of new movies loh..i haven't watch a few...i really wanna watch tokyo drift..oohh..oh yea...this week in school was quite fun actually...yesterday,i had netball and it rained...but we continued playing but the teacher in charge came so she ordered us not to play...so sad..i think yesterday was the best time most of the members had in netball..cause of some reason...haha...i had duty for this leo club thing to help the club sell ice-creams...yea today wa sthe last day..and we had meeting too..it was boring,boring,BORING....!!!honestly how much boring can it get...it's extremely hot now a days..it's like..sona or smthing...and we had PE in school..we did long jump..ohhh i suck at it..!!!we gonna have exam on it next week..that's worst...i just came back from cuting my hair...i didn't exactly cut...she just thinnen it and change the style...i kind of like it..hmmm...it's really like punk rock if i put jell like now...tommorow wil be a big day for my mummy...she did this tourism book..it's pretty cool..i relised there's a few interesting places in kuching that no one knows...ohhh like this place...Disiniland..something like that...it's at batu kawa..it's really nice..there's pony riding,sailing,swimming, and other stuff..there's also this place to see dophin..ooo...i really wish i could watch and actually swim with it or touch it...ooo it's one thing i would love to do..haha...

Grey's Anatomy

2006-07-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

cool har...is mostly about medical stuff and love stuff...it's really interesting...ooo can't wait for the next season.finish 2 season liao...the song that is played is very nice...i like this song..it's called CHASING CARS...

We'll do it all, everything, on our own
We don't need anything or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world

I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace to remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
I just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world

2006-07-18T18:27:00.000+08:00

Grey's Anatomy

check this out...

2006-07-12T19:56:00.000+08:00

oooo..i just had my exam and i got papers back already that's quick..haha..left two more papers..i so think i am going to get C for both of them..hope NOT... actually overall i did improve ..so i'm quite happy although i still did get a few bad results...well that's life ain't it..well,besides exams...my weeks was quite okay..my sisters are back both of them from manchester,UK..cool har...i wish i could go there when i grew up for studies but most proberly not..haha..anyways i had this talk in school this bgr thing...honestly it's really boring..i was so sleepy when the doc. gave her speech..hmmm...oh yea on that day we had asembly too..and last year the form 3 scored the highest in pmr as in the amounts..:) so they gave out the presants that day...and some badminton competitions stuff..oh yea, kuching had a bad storm...and lodge school...the block B's roof flew to block A and hit the roof and the rail...and it fell..yea yea i guess that's kind of all what mr lee said and of course the same thing over and over again..bla bla bla...that's all i guess...ooo..there's this extremely nice series movie called grey's anatomy..is so cool...there's cutting sewing or watever a surgeon do..it's really nice..must watch..check this out...

sick...

2006-06-26T18:54:00.000+08:00

i am so so sick today and yesterday too...ohhh..my head hurts,i got cough and flu...and my throat hurts...i could'nt stand it so i went home earlier from school...ohh..it HURTS..!!! Yesterday was really fun although i was sick...youth in SFEC was fun...we did hip hop dance...tought by one of the youths itself..he is a great wonderful dancer, i must say... i was so confuse with the steps..it was quite hard but extremely fun...oh yea...happy belated b'day, friend...hehe..i don't really have mood to write coz i am quite tired...but anyways...arr...i have pembentangan tmr...and i can't memorise...i will totally forget wad i memorise..grr..and exam is like so near, i gotha study again..haha..oh yea...yesterday was the premeir for high school musical..it rocks man..so nice...Gabriella is very pretty...and Troy is so hot..haha..it's not like i'm so into it..but i'm just saying..haha...anyways there's nothing much to say actually...can't think here...haha...okie..have to go eat medicine..adios...hope i'll be well soon..hehe...

Bad day....

2006-06-23T17:01:00.000+08:00

today was actually great...until i found out something..it is so stupid...there's this club that i join in skool...which is so dumb...ugrhhhh..u have a meeting just to vote the new president and b.o.d's and guess they revote...how stupid rite...Duh..!!!when u tell ppl, ppl will oso think the same...what's the use of having a meeting to vote when u're going to do it again among the teachers and last b.o.d's it's so extremely stupid...i use to like this club...but now is like..it's just hurtful...grr...people voted for me...and i was one of the b.o.d's which is the vice secretery...when i know that i was...i was quite happy...but today i asked my friend and guess what he say..i am not one of them anymore...he said they revote agian..and bla..bla..bla..u noe what's the reason they revote...coz their frenz wanted to be on of the b.o.d's...shessh..u have so many chances last time..and why can't u just give other ppl the cance now..and guess my friend is still in..he was oso voted andhe was the comittee member or something and he wasn't kicked out and i was...can u explain that??? i can bet u if i ask the person that revote..she/he can't answer me..it's so stupid u noe...u noe i really dislike this club..yea i guess the president is good yea but she or he have no rite to revote..is not her/his fault...some ppl say that it's unfair...your name wasn't called too bad..sheesh...so pathetic lar...i don't really mind not being it's just that they kicked me out and they didn't inform me...and not onli that my friend is still in when he/she has less votes then me...then that is what i call unfair....urgh...wateva lar... anyways...other then that my day okie...today's lesson was not that bad as usual..hehe..i guess...today i must realli study and tmr too..exam is like just next week..oh..i can't wait..(sarcastically) haha...oh..i must get good results..i really owe to my mum...haha..well, i'll just try my best...i'll update agian maybe tonite...very tired...haha

2006-06-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

urgh....just woke up early in the morning...barely can open my eyes...already quarrell with my bro and mom loh..so annoying man..sheesh...scold people without knowing anything...pathetic lar...and my bro leh..just make it worst..wateva...!!!anyways..besides that, we had PE(PJK)lah..in skool..and i was like so humilliated...gudness!!!! so geram lah..we had long jump..and i did it right but the bad part is i felll...everyone did 3 times..and guess what..all of the 3 chances..i fell in 3 different ways...STUPID lar...!! hmmmm...and i have this friend that laughed at me when i fell,actually everyone laughed which is so embarassing...grrrr...haha..yea after he laughed at me, when he jumped..he felll..hahahaha...so we kind of laughed at each other..haha..my whole body was fulled with sad...ewww....and it's so itchy...so i went to wash my legs and hands and i went my whole shoe...which is the most stupid thing to do..so i suffered for the whole day with wet shoe...ewww...and it's like so hard for me to walk so i didn't went to canteen again so i didn't eat..hehe..besides that it was okie...i guess...stella my partner for oral and i did the bm oral today so we r free...yipee...haha..everyone was like so distracted by the food..and not the speaking..as usual...hmmm...i know they all wanted to eat it..my lines to say was all mixed up..i totally mixed all kinds of language...and when i was actually doing the sandwich..my frnz..said that my hands was like shivering...it was kind of true..my hands was so shacky and i wad so nervous..have no idea why..haha..after that there nothing spectacular except for.....the teacher said keep the food den go home time give but i didn't any container to put so i gave during class...i was just standing in front of the class...and the next minute u know that u r attack by barbarians in 2b class...they were actually snatching it...i pitied some of my frenz...haha...sorry guys...!!!:P amusingly this is my first time i saw dis particular teacher laughed not smile...haha...that'a all i guess..better luck next time guys, other times , ya??!!??

thedayarrived

2006-06-20T22:27:00.000+08:00

tick tock tick tock.....every minute i waited for my sis to come home....haha she came back around 12 smthing in the afternoon...and i was like in school...ugrh...as usual i didn't eat my lunch again in school...i guess all my frenz knows that i don't always eat in school...4.00 arrive in the end after boring psk class...yey...going to meet my sis..yipee...but before i could go home i had to collect money for this picture of netball from the students that bought it...so i was kind of like rushing here and running up and down which is so tiring...after that, i waited for my sis to pick me who came late..hehe..yea she came fetch us up in skool..well...we pretty much have a lot of stuff to tok about..so it went on and on and on and on..haha..i kind of like need to go and buy things for my bm oral tommorow..we kept toking again haha....after that i kind of went to see her things...and not fair she have so many nice clothes...hmmm..i want them...hey..u know what???she bought 3 england shirts ...hehe..cool har...!!! well, i didn't really see much of her stuff coz i was rushing to tuition..and the time i wanted to go...there's no transport..sheesh..haha..so i was like calling calling my mum who is always engaged on the line..so that's pretty hard..and my dad just went off...now i have a driver which is my sis and i don't have a car..so of course, i was late again..the tuition was pretty boring but at least i did a lot of work there...haha..so i came home around 9.45 plus plus i guess...and get ready to watch footie..!!!yey...haha..Germany won again..hmmm.welll Klose scored in 2 in the first half...so fast man..Bosacki from Polland also scorred both of the goals....another goal for germany was by Poldoski i think...can't remember his name..England and Sweden got draw...!!!!2-2 lah...i didn't watch that match...3.00 mah...so tired ar..so sayang...i wanted to watch that match...haha...but end up i was on my bed...